First thing we did was try to make an appointment with our Dr. He was busy and couldn't see us for three weeks since it wasn't an emergency. I thought "You don't understand, I have no life and you're telling me it's not an emergency?" We called some of the other Drs and got an appointment with one of them. When we went in for the appointment the nurse took all my vitals and we waited for the Dr.
She came in and started talking to us and I told her everything that I could think of that was wrong with me. Mood swings, crying a lot, always down, low sex drive, wasn't losing the baby weight, no memory, on and on I went. When I got done the Dr. looked at me and deadpan straight faced said, "so what do you want? Drugs?"
What on earth is she saying, my mind whirled. That's her answer? No other suggestions?? I looked at her, " How about lab work to make sure there isn't anything physically wrong with me" I said pointedly. She shrugged, "Okay I'll write you up a lab slip, when you want meds come back and see me"
Well gee that was helpful. I started crying again as soon as we got to the car. There's something really wrong with me and my Dr. can't bother to see me and the other Dr. wants to put me on meds. I went home and did some research. I found that most Dr's answers was drugs. I also found that even thought the Dr's say you only have to be on them for a short time that most people that started them were still on them. I also found that most of the drugs had side effects that I already had as symptoms. Why would I want to take a medication that was going to make me worse and that I would in all reality probably be on for years. I started crying again.
My husband and I were falling apart, I was at a point where I didn't want anything to do with my daughter, and no one seemed to want to help me. I turned to the church. I knew that one of the ranch lady's that I really liked had a husband that was a pastor. He should be trained in counseling. I called her and set up a time to meet with them. Or at least I thought I would be meeting with both of them. I arrived with my family to find that only she was there. Now I really like this lady but I was extremely dissapointed. It isn't her that I really wanted to see. We sat and we talked for hours. I complained that I didn't have the time to do anything I wanted to do because of all the housework and keeping everything else up. Her answer, "who cares? Does Tim get upset when it doesn't get done?"
"No, but I do" I replied.
"well don't let it eat your biscuit" She replied back...
WHAT???? what the heck is she talking about???!! Several hours later we left, I was again dissapointed and crying out of frustration. Why can't anyone help me???
The only thing she had told me that was at all hopeful was about a blood type diet. She said that since all the blood types of the world had developed in different times and different places the people consequently ate different things. Therefore your diet should be based on what blood type you are and certain blood types should not eat certain things. She recommended a book at the library. What she said made sense and I checked out the book and also the website but I still wasn't getting anywhere...
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Bless your heart!!
I have been in kinda the same place. I did end up on Zoloft for about 3 years. It did help at first. After I had been on it for a while, I learned new ways to deal with what stressed me out and made me depressed. (My Husband) I also realized the medication made me feel better because it made me not feel. All the things that I had felt passionate about before were gone.....nada-zero-zip. I used to cry during sad movies, wanted to save the rain forest, and fight for the underdog. On Zoloft, I no longer cared. But I was coping with my day to day life pretty well. Some counseling helped me find ways to understand my marriage and then I knew I needed to get off the drug. It was really hard. Your body is totally addicted to it. I had bad side effects for weeks. I got off of it and my passion for life returned. Diet has been a HUGE help. Our bodies are a sensitive balance of chemicals.....some make us feel good and some make us feel nuts. I did the whole Lemon/master cleanse thing a little over a year ago so I could detox and begin eating what I call "Clean". No beef (unless organic, grass fed only) industry beef is full of hormones, etc and is corn finished which the cow's body is not made to digest...it actually makes them fat but sickly. I quit eating beef and tried to eat it after a couple of months and it made me sick so I totally lost my desire for it. If your family hunts natural, free range meats, that is the best!! I also will not eat ANYTHING with preservatives, hormones, antibiotics, artificial color or flavor or hydrogenated fat in it. The idea is that our bodies were designed to work efficiently if we don't put toxins in them. We were designed to eat free range - organic meats, fresh veggies, fruits, nuts and a minimum amount of grains (humans did not start to consume grains till only the last thousand years and wheat can be a problem) I eat oats, buckwheat (not actually wheat) and flax..Ocassional rice. We are the only creature that regularly consumes the milk of another species...I love cheese and half&half in my tea and on my oatmeal. I also LOVE ice cream, sigh...I really think I shouldn't be consuming it but I haven't got that far yet. Goats milk (Yea for you!) is supposed to be a much better choice if they eat organic. We eat LOTS of organic, free range chicken eggs. (they are soooo pricey here, I can't wait till I have my own flock!) I actually make a smoothie for me and the kids every morning with a big shot of orange juice, three raw eggs (my Dr. said there is a extreamly low chance of ever getting salmonella or E.Coli, etc..in raw eggs) plus I read if you blend them in the orange juice first the acid kills any bacteria. So I let the blended OJ and eggs sit in the blender while I get out the frozen blueberries and banana. I blend it all up and sometimes add some plain kefir to add the live cultures we need for intestinal health. My kids go to school with three servings of fruits and a serving of egg protein. It has made a huge difference!! I feel great all morning too. (I also snack on some nuts in the morning too) I usually take my calcium and vit. E tabs with my smoothie. So I basically don't eat any of the garbage I used to live on when I felt so bad. No donuts, pastrys, cookies, candy, tons of cheese, bread, beef. This is actually all poison for my body. The sugar makes your body work extra hard. It is bad for your skin and your energy level. We are supposed to eat organic veggies full of phyto-nutrients from the sun and earth. I was not able to do it till I did the Master/lemon cleanse first. I made it for 5 days on it and then started to eat clean. (google Master Cleanse or Lemon Cleanse to get the recipe and info) I have ocassionally ate something I knew I shouldn't but have really embraced it as a new lifestyle. I feel actually like a new person. My skin quit breaking out and I have an even energy level all day and best of all, I hardly ever feel depressed or unable to cope. (Still living with hubby, sigh..) I can tell when it is the last few days of "The Month". My limit is shorter and I get tired more easily but I think most women have to deal with that. I also lost the last 15 pounds without exercise. When I started to eat in a way my body could clean house, the weight came off in about 4 months. I still don't really exercise and that is because I don't like to go to the gym. (I am 5'7" and I weigh about 123 pounds..I am very small boned)I like to work outside and it is winter here for 7 months of the year. I know I have even MORE energy and less depression when I get out for a brisk walk 3-5 times a week. Anyway.....your posts have just really touched my heart since I have kinda been there. I actually thought at one time I would just be better off dead. But I loved my kids too much and had always wanted to be a mother. God let me know, I was designed by him to eat what he had placed here for us. He has blessed me by healing my body and mind when I chose to do the right thing by it. I know a lot of women DO NEED to be on medication, but I would try to heal my body (which will help your mind) first. This is only my story and everyone is different. I just want you to know there is HOPE!!
Blessings- LillySue
P.S. If you have any questions or just want to visit, email me at apeaceofbliss@msn.com
Thank you JLB for posting and also to LillySue for the comments. I'm following with anticipation and I also was in the space place as you. I think our current health care system is just one giant pill dispensery - health care it isn't - sick care it is.
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